He Was And Forever My "Qi"..

Dear Diary,

25 September 2013

I started chat him as soon as I approve him on facebook. His looks seem so soft, very shy looking guy, always posted his photo with his friends and siblings.He's the eldest just like me.Our mutual friend was actually my ex's fb friend so I don't really know them in person. All I know he live nearby (my collage).

26 September -  29 September 2013

We get to know each other.We ask about university course, about our days.He was busy with his classes while I'm in my semester break.

30 September 2013

He chat with me again.He said my latest photo were cute.(I don't remember what I posted)

2 October 2013

I chat him.I asked about his university events that I saw my friend promote in her facebook. I don't know either I really wanted to go to the events or just want to create a conversation with him.I don't usually attend events other than my uni event because of transportation issues.I was in the second year and he was in his third year (I think).

6 October 2013

I continue our conversation from 2nd Oct.He said I must be bored that's why I chat him.He even told me if  I ever wanted to chat him, just give my number it will be easier to contact.I told him my number already in my profile section.He ask me whether I had a boyfriend.I said I have a boyfriend and I apologize to him. He said I had much time chatting with him during my semester break so he thought I was single.My bad.

 ********************I scroll up to our old dms.****************************

I never mention him before in my diary.To me he just like my other friend, who just came and go .I never knew he meant so much to me.I had so much things in my mind right now..

Our relationship was so strange but we do care for each other and we know we are not for each other till the end.Thus, we actually prepared for the time.(At least I thought I prepared)

We know each other so well.We sometimes coincidentally wearing match color when we go out.We know our time is short.I know my time with him short.He know it too but he don't know the exact time

It's been less than a year we didn't contact.

One day before new year eve,I saw him passing by. He went to carnival with his little sister.Out of thousands people,how can I met him there??

My heart was pounding so rapidly. I was with my mother and sisters.I don't know either I should go to him or just pretend I didn't see him. I walked to other booth.Oh great!! I saw him again.He was buying foods for his little sister. I decided just do it or I shall regret it later.

I tap his shoulder with my phone..

"Haii..."

I don't know how to describe his face.. Happy? From his face he also seems happy to see me.I'm so happy to see you.I'm happy like a child went to school for the first time.I'm sooo happy like I'm met you for the first time..

Do you remember..I said and sound like a first time we meet...

You are one of the best things that happen to my life and I don't regret it once.I'm sorry for always gave you hope.You teach me to move on..

Now,I need to teach myself to move on from you.

Thanks for the memory, Qica.

A Year Summary

Dear myself,

    I'm doing just fine.I'm turning 24 this year.Last year (2016) were really challenging to me.It was so many up and down.In the early 2016,I'm die trying to finishing my studies.Final year project was finally completed in March.However,I couldn't graduate yet because of 2 elective subject which I planned to take during short semester in April.

    Then the nightmare started.My university didn't offer elective subjects during short semester.The only elective subject was Introduction to Nuclear from Mechanical Department.As I'm from Electrical Department student,I can apply for that subject but I still need one more subject to complete the degree.Urghhh!! All those things happen because I believe on the rumors during my Student Council years.They said the upcoming short semester shall turn to long semester.Learn your lesson kiddo.Do not trust rumors even though it is from higher position peeps.

    After that,I decided to take a break from studies(did not enroll in any subject during short semester).I had never ever able to holiday for more than 3 weeks for the past 5 years.The last and longest break were during SPM. I'm one of the first people in my school entered university earlier by a couple of month(as IPTS enterence were early back then).So, it has been a while I enjoyed long break.

    Since it is so awkward to me to stayed at home for so long even though it just 2 weeks,I searched for part time job with my friend,Amalina.

PS: Telah lama post ni di draft..(feb 2017)..cerita x habis lagi tapi kte post dulu..